you are in the pit of despair

don't even think about trying to escape.

love that movie.

so, i'm stuck. stuck in supreme inefficiency. stuck in shamefully wasting time. stuck in an inability to go forward. stuck in not knowing how. stuck in hefty indifference and lack of motivation.

i try to get out and i spend hours reading only to get nowhere and remember nothing.

people ask how i'm doing. it's lie or unload. lie or admit the truth. so i lie.

the walls are far too thick.