the next one will be positive, promise!

do you ever want to quit your life? you look at the things you are doing, or should be doing and are avoiding, and think--why?? or--i don't even like this. do you ever lose every scrap of will power and motivation to do anything except lay on the ground and stare off into space with a vacant and uninterested mind? do you ever get to the point where nothing--not even fun things, like tv or going out to eat or shopping or watching a movie--is appealing?