27 August 2009

wishing i could wind down list

i'm totally wound up. i can't relax. even if i try. it's kind of exhilarating, actually. i need to get up to campus and start on my work (various). but here's a list about things i wish i could do right now to wind down (in an effort to wind down a bit):

1. Go to the beach with a book. A really gripping book.

2. Lay out at the pool.

3. Go home to WA and hang out with my parents and sleep in my bed and be pampered. And go grocery shopping for my mom and make dinner.

4. Go get a massage.

5. Go to the movies. Make that two movies. In a row. With treats.

6. Go for a long drive in the mountain with the windows down and park my car somewhere.

7. Go get a smoothie, put my feet up, and read.

17 August 2009

things-i-wish-were/could do-but-not-really list

i just couldn't help myself! after blogging my last post, i thought of a million lists i want to write and just have to post one before i go do something related to school, like read tristram shandy (there's a list waiting to happen--reasons i do/do not like that book)

{side note: i really like my life, so this is actually a fun list, not at all a sad/pity me list}

this could probably also be titled: things-i-daydream-about list.

1) An artist--the painting/drawing kind. Wouldn't it be so great to be able to create like that? How cool would that be?! How does it happen? What does it feel like?

2) Write a novel. How great would that be? To spend ones time thinking about how to put a plot together and fleshing out characters and stuff. I think I would want to be a fun-read novelist. Like a Harry Potter writer or a really clever and funny mystery novelist, like Jasper Fforde.

3) Olympic athlete. Preferably an ice skater. Or a swimmer. Or a gymnist.

4) A professional musician--a classical one. like a pianist. or a violinist.

5) Have a beautiful singing voice.

6) Grow thick, long, curly hair.

7) Speak lots of languages--like Welsh, French, Scots, German, Spanish, Italian, and Latin. Maybe Portuguese. And definitely Arabic.

8) Write calligraphy.

9) Speak with an accent.

10) Make a film! (I want to do this so badly!) And be able to act.

ahhh, good times. back to the infamous tristram.

why-i-am-skeptical-about-my-blog list

i am skeptical about my blog. and i have been thinking about it lately and wondering why i am not really taking to this blogging thing so well. i have a couple of ideas:

1) because it feels like a journal, except public. which stinks, because then i don't really have the freedom and privacy to complain about things, or analyze/admit my deeper insecurities, or vent, etc. etc.

2) because i don't have any adorable children of whom i could post pictures.

3) because i stink at taking pictures of my own life, and so don't a have visual chronicle of me that i could post instead of adorable pictures of my non-existent children. and, let's be honest, my life pretty much consists of school. exciting. that is going to keep readers on the edges of their seats! it wouldn't even keep me (and i love school) at the edge of my seat. because i couldn't blog the really juicy fun stuff without using lots of code names and things like that (see #1)

{side note: on second thought, code names could be really fun. it would be like the scandalous secret histories i read in my 18C classes. that would also be very academic of me. still. secret histories had (and thus, i would think, have) a tendency to bite their authors in the bum later}

4) because a cool blog that has decided to not post pictures would require interesting posts that would, in turn, require thought and actual writing. and i am way too lazy to do writing on an extra-curricular basis. i mean, if i am actually going to sit down and write, i probably shouldn't be writing a blog.

{unless, of course, i decide to make the blog my "study for comps" blog--but then, see problem #3--that could be come very boring}

so, i'm not sure what to do with this thing. i have thought of making it a blog of lists. because i do like a good list. or maybe i will bite the bullet and actually practice writing. i know, fat chance. or maybe the blog will have to leave cyberspace. we shall see.